I am standing on the edge of an epiphany. My mind is this flower that is slowly opening up. Ideas, theory’s, concepts, perspectives. Its like a revelation is sitting on the tip of my tounge. I am slowly uncovering a giant secret that is underneath everything. Peel the world away and in the very center - like a stone in a peach - there will be this… thing. It is like I am Neo in the Matrix. He thinks something is up, something is defiantly weird, but he has no idea what it is, until he swallows the pill. Maybe I am stepping towards enlightenment. I feel like people all around me are walking about with their eyes closed. I cant really tell you exactly what it is, I don’t know. I feel like I should be researching, I should be reading books and articles, taking massive notes, tracking down all the leading experts in..what?

Things like:

Music is mathematics. Fibonacci Numbers. The fall from grace and childhood innocence. The subjectivity of reality (read: Pseudo-environments). Mythology. Creativity and the subconscious and where dreams come from. How COMPLETELY demonic GLOBALisation is. Suicide, depression and conditions of society. Sexuality’s and Spirituality’s and how all religions are almost the same. Alternative lifestyles. Space. A collective consciousness. Theoretical movements through history. And how everyone is looking for something and What is the definition of success. Happiness and the meaning of life. The Montessori schooling system and how the concept of government is innately evil. Romanticism. Utopianism. Poverty, Apathy and the real value of money. Can the majority be as totally WRONG as I think it is? Human nature and the mechanics of the mind. What defines my our identity’s? Philosophy, History and Ancient civilizations. How God is at the center of it all.

I am so thirsty for knowledge. I just want to become a professional academic. just researching things of interest. I can hop onto Wikipedia and stay there for hours, skipping from article to article, and pasting down all the books i want to read and concepts i want to investigate.