Do you ever get the feeling that maybe you are living in a matrix? that reality isnt as real as you thought it was? that there is more to you, to life, to everything, then it seems? I get that feeling all the time…

Think about time. There was never a beginning of time, and there will never be an end of time. it always is and always will be. wow. The same goes for space. It never ends, it goes on forever and ever and ever. The same with God, he has always existed and always will exist, he is everywhere at once, he is here now, and he is also in the future and the past. All of these concepts, if you think about it…reaaally think about it. well, its impossible to imagine, we cant stretch our minds around that. And if you try hard enough for long enough then you start to hyperventilate because it is beyond anything you have ever experienced, it is beyond our frame of reference. My point: there is more to everything than we can understand.

They say humans only use 10% of their brains. I feel like i am a horse wearing blinkers. I can only see what is right in front of me. I am only experiencing this narrow existence that all other humans experience, but there is so much more out there. There is a world of infinite potentiol just beyond my reach. Like a word on the tip of your tounge, like when you forget something and are just about to remember it, like when you can tell someone is watching you. Thats what it feels like.

I’ve been obsessing thinking a lot about: Out of Body Experiences, Genius’ (what is it that separates them from normal people?), Autistic people (Maybe nothing is wrong with them, maybe they are more whole/intouch than I will ever be?), People who claim to communicate with the dead, Why Children are superior to adults, untapped creative potentiol, Pre-lapsarian vs post-lapsarian, The Subconsciouses mind.

This is why I want to try out Lucid dreaming. Its when you have a dream, but you are conscious in the dream and can interact with the dream world just as you would with the real world. Except when you are dreaming you can fly and use super powers and talk to trees etc. So the number one key to Lucid dreaming is dream recall. I have really good dream recall and usually remember my dreams when i wake up. But if i don’t consciously mull over them, write them down or tell someone about them then I usually forget them after a few hours. Last night i dreampt about a pumpkin that tasted like apples, pears, pineapple and more all combined and people were breeding them to replace all other fruits!

My hopes with Lucid dreaming is that it will allow me to consciously interact with my subconscious mind. And maybe this will give me a clue about that huge secret that i can sense lurking just behind my peripheral vision.

PS: I wrote a creative peice inspired by Lucid dreaming called The Dream Theater. check it out mateys!