I am entering a new season of my life, I think. A season of News and Firsts and Yes’s.

2006 was a season of Lasts and Endings and Goodbyes and Forevers. It was my last year of school and I felt that every time I did anything it was for the last time…

2007 was my first year of Uni, but I have not felt like this was a new beginning. More like a cooling down period, a semi metamorphosis into someone more solidified. I now have opinions because they are mine, not because they are my parents or because they are the churches, but because I have looked at the world, heard it from so many more points of view, and made my own judgments. And I feel my opinions will continue to evolve, and thats ok. I will come out of this year knowing this: Just Trust Myself. Not to trust University’s or Publishers or Judges or Friends or Family’s or Strangers. Just to trust ME, because only I know what I have inside me.

I remember on the night of our graduation, around this time last year, I told someone how I was planning on becoming an amazingly successful author. He asked me “Do you really believe that?” I paused and then nodded my head, “Yes. I do.” “Well then it will happen” he said, looking me in the eye like I had just confirmed something he had hoped was true. And I still believe it now, despite the appalling grammar I have just displayed (”speech marks” confuse me). Because I trust that the voice inside of me is worth hearing.

I feel like 2008 is different again. I feel that, already right now, things are beginning to happen. I am setting goals and making plans, I have places to go now. I currently have a list of 14 different events (festivals, competitions, workshops etc) that I want to be involved in next year. And I have a direction: Up. I will only be doing one university course next semester, a creative writing production workshop, to keep me on track with my novel, but I am going to focus the rest of my energy into real projects.

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Here is another first, my first Blogger award! I am officially the weeks Best Blog about Stuff: