The disclaimer: I haven’t been writing Blog posts very regularly because I have been questioning the value of the Blog. Is it a waste of time? It can take hours; thinking about, writing, editing, uploading photos, all for one blog post. Is it worth it when I am already struggling to make time to meet up with friends? Or find friends.

I’ve decided I need some friends. Last year was my first big year out of school. I left most of my friends behind and didn’t make many more. It was a very un-social period of my life. So in my attempt to make some new friends I have become a church surfer. And all the churches are kinda… falling short of my expectations.

This is my one biggest problem with churches. There is one person on a stage preaching to hundreds of people. Sometimes I will hear a pastor say something and I think “that is only one side of the story”. I feel like other people (like me) have different opinions on what is being said, but our voice isn’t heard. Everyone is sitting around screaming out “amen” and nodding their heads, but they are being presented with a biased point of view on every issue from what we should be spending money, on to what direction the church should be taking, even to how we interpret bible verses. I think it is dangerous and unhealthy to have one voice on EVERY issue.

Churches should be like a family where everyones voices are heard and everyone is cared for. Instead it is like a circus, where people go to be dazzled and entertained and all the decisions are made my the ring master in his caravan, while smoking a Cuban Cigar.

Maybe Churches are too big? Maybe people have fallen into a trap of following this worn out structure. Nobody is thinking outside the box. Nobody is challenging the norms. Nobody is breaking traditions, breaking barriers, being radical.

I don’t know what I expect. More. I expect more from the body of Christ. Right now these people in their shiny suits talking about “ministry’s” and “programs” to benefit this “Community”… I don’t know. I cant point out what is wrong with it but it doesn’t line up with the God I am into right now. I just want to sell everything I own and join some hippie commune.